History, a life, the heart, the brain
Flow to the taste buds and flew back again
That decades or more past Keats’s span
Makes me an older, not a wiser man
Taken from ‘A Kumquat for John Keats’ By Tony Harrison,
These lines from Tony Harrison has given me a lot of comfort recently, as I have not been acting my age! Middle age, marriage, grown up children, experience… They do not protect you from that school girl crush that whacks right in the stomach!
I let a butterfly in, t’ other day.
It flew in through my old myopic eye
And fluttered recklessly around my brain.
There, it disturbed a million sleeping stars.
When, it found out my unprotected breast.
He buried his oil slicked wings deep inside
I thought my fractured heart was bound to break.
Leaving me sad, unanchored and exposed.
In my stomach, it found some long-lost friends
And partied on through the moon spangled night
By morning, nothing really felt the same
Though I knew they had all got up and left.