History, a life, the heart, the brain
Flow to the taste buds and flew back again
That decades or more past Keats’s span
Makes me an older, not a wiser man
Taken from ‘A Kumquat for John Keats’ By Tony Harrison,
These lines from Tony Harrison has given me a lot of comfort recently, as I have not been acting my age! Middle age, marriage, grown up children, experience… They do not protect you from that school girl crush that whacks right in the stomach!
Beware of butterflies!
I let a butterfly in, t’ other day.
It flew in through my old myopic eye
And fluttered recklessly around my brain.
There, it disturbed a million sleeping stars.
When, it found out my unprotected breast.
He buried his oil slicked wings deep inside
I thought my fractured heart was bound to break.
Leaving me sad, unanchored and exposed.
In my stomach, it found some long-lost friends
And partied on through the moon spangled night
By morning, nothing really felt the same
Though I knew they had all got up and left.